Worthy in the Mirror

Dear Earth Fam,

Take a deep breath. Feel the ground beneath your feet, and remember that the same intelligence that moves the stars is currently beating your heart.  

We are not just on the Earth looking at the sky; we are a living bridge between the Galactic and the Earthly, anchored right here in our physical bodies.

I am going to share something personal for my first article here on substack. I’m sharing the moment I noticed I conditioned my self worth to my body image. But we aren’t just talking about “self-worth” in a superficial sense of self-love. We are talking about the intrinsic, pulsating knowing that You Are Worthy.

I’ve been hosting online and in person gatherings since April to support community building, spiritual wellness, and nervous system regulation, all to assist to create the world we want to be living in. I call this place Inner Light Circle  Since the May Inner Light Circle gathering, I had a massive personal breakthrough. I was looking at myself in the mirror, and typically when I do so, I will look at the parts of my body I don’t like and want to change. But this time, I caught myself. In that moment of noticing, a wave of realization hit me: I had conditioned my self-worth on my physical appearance.

I had subconsciously wired my nervous system to believe that I was unworthy because I hadn’t achieved this “perfect” exterior version of myself yet. I was limiting my view, waiting to earn my worthiness by being a certain size. Especially as a yoga teacher and someone that appears in front of group gatherings, I felt I would be deemed as more worthy, if I was already my ideal size and weight.

And that’s when I felt a little spark in my heart, and heard the clearest whisper from Spirit: “You have always been worthy, Sabrina. You just needed to notice it for yourself.” 

Ahhh... alignment. The revelation finally landed. I have heard this teaching a thousand times before, but for some reason, I could not embody it until that exact second. My nervous system had been treating my current body as a “failure” which kept me locked out of feeling worthy for the things I want to experience in this life. Like I was holding out for a future date with Worthiness, until my exterior matched the version of me I wanted to meet it with.

Worthiness doesn’t care about a calendar, and it certainly isn’t waiting for a wardrobe change or my size to change. That future date is canceled. The reservation is for right now.

Standing in front of that mirror, I stood up for myself. I chose to believe Spirit over the old wiring of my nervous system. I truly believe that the work we have been doing in I.L.C. is what prepared my cells to finally receive this truth.

The relief that washed over me in that realization was instant. My nervous system finally got the memo: I don’t have to wait to arrive. I am already here. This month in Inner Light Circle, we will be exploring this theme a little further, paired with our continued nervous system regulation. I truly believe that the work we have been doing in I.L.C. is what brought forward this teaching of Self Worth to land in my cells.

Earth Fam, my question for you today is simple: What have you conditioned your worth upon? Is it a number on a scale, a title, a relationship, or a future version of yourself?

Take a moment to check in with your own breath and body right now. Where have you been withholding your own worthiness? What version of ‘perfect’ is your nervous system holding out for before you allow yourself to feel whole?

If this resonated with you, I’d love to hear your reflections in the comments. And if you are craving a space to regulate, realign, and remember who you are, consider joining the community of at Inner Light Circle. We’re just getting started. With Love, Sabrina Savoy